You used to make me happy

You used to make me so happy
Now all you do is make me sad
I don’t want to go through this
I thought you were the one
The one I was going to spend my life with
Now I don’t know
Cause now I’m just a mess
I don’t know what I want
I don’t even know if I want you anymore
I put so much effect into the relationship
But you put nothing
I gave up everything for you
You gave up nothing
You said you wanted to be alone
What was I meant to do?
Wait around
Till you knew what to do
Or what you wanted
I waited
Waited for nothing
I’m all confused
I love you
But it’s too hard
All I do is hurt
I cry all the time
Just thinking if I mean anything to you

I MISS

I MISS .. his smile, his laugh, his dimples, his soft voice, his silly jokes, his sweetness, his grin, his warmth, his touch, his hug, his kiss .. holding hands, cuddling ..

I MISS the way he called me 'sayang', the way he pampered me, the way he made me feel better all time, the way he looked at me, the way he talked to me ..

I MISS how he cared for me, how he sat close to me, how he used to be there for me, how he used to tease me jokingly just to make me laugh, how we could just talk about anything together ... I miss when it was only two of us ..

No more 'I miss you so much syg' text. No more sudden text saying 'I love you syg'. No more morning calls from him. No more early breakfast, or dinner or supper. No more spending the whole weekend with him. NO MORE US!

I hate him but I love him, still.

NOTSOPUISI

Engkau tak punya hati
Tinggalkan aku sendiri
Bersama janji-janji yang tak pernah kau tepati
Tapi aku masih di sini
Nekad aku masih berdiri
Mengharap 'cinta' yang takkan pernah datang kembali ...

Melewati malam-malamku kini
Tak punya bulan, tak punya bintang
Aku sunyi, aku sepi .....

Hanya berharap aku pada mimpi
Ke dunia fantasi
Aku tinggalkan realiti
Kan lebih baik begini?

Tersedar aku dari lamunan sendiri
Berbisik hanya pada hati
Adakah masih ada sinar di esok hari?

a l l y s u m d

STAY

Well it's good to hear your voice
I hope you're doing fine
And if you ever wonder,
I'm lonely here tonight
Lost here in this moment and time keeps slipping by
And if I could have just one wish
I'd have you by my side

I miss you.
I need you.

HEY!

It's been a while since my last post.

Heh, I don't know what to update actually.

Lagipun, I think I'm not into blogging anymore, haha.

But I'm not going to close my blog, just akan rarely update this thing.

OK stop with the unnecessary explanation, like who cares? Gahaha.

Oh ya, Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak to all muslims.

HAPPY FASTING!

Dreamland

LOST IN THE AMAZON

Currently reading this book.
Pretty good so far.

WIMPY KID

DONE with these two.

.

LIFE ...

I'M TIRED. I'M COLD. I'M CONFUSED. please God stay with me.

Russian Circles - Carpe

Post-rock is love!

Planning

BLUR. still.

Worry too much

Everything seems blurry right now ..
Life.

Future.

Hmmph.

SMOKING.chronic.hectic #2

Sometimes life can be so confusing ..
.. and I'm tired of choosing ..

Dream bedroom

Fix it

when you try your best but you don't succeed
when you get what you want but not what you need
when you feel so tired but you can't sleep
stuck in reverse.

and the tears come streaming down your face
when you lose something you can't replace
when you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and I will try to fix you

and high up above earth or down below
when you're too in love to let it go
but if you never try you'll never know
just what you're worth

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

tears stream, down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
tears stream down your face and i...

tears stream, down your face
i promise you i will learn from my mistakes
tears stream down your face and i...

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you.

fix you.
coldplay. my all-time favorite.

I wish

images source: tumblr.

Silent escape

Sometimes I wish I could escape reality
.. and leave behind all of these craps.

image credit Rebecca Key

Broken

I feel broken. I cried alot today.
Am I such a bad friend?


image credit Atomic Turquoise

I'M A ZOMBIE & I'M GONNA EAT YOUR BRAIN.

I just want my normal life back.

I mean like normal. N O R M A L?

I'm getting tired of being a Z O M B I E.

10.30 a.m. and I'm still awake. WTF?

FUCK IT.

For the dreamers

For the ones who look to the sky and imagine the possibilities. To the one’s who look at a pile of discarded garbage on the side of the road, and see art. To the one’s who often feel overwhelmed by the beauty of other people. To the one’s who write, and paint, and think. To the one’s who hate humanity, yet love it to death. To the one’s who feel too strongly and love too deeply. To the one’s who stay up late with heads filled and minds yearning. To the one’s who drink life in and spit it out. To the one’s who see the opportunity to create something new, where others see just another blank canvas. To the one’s who cry and laugh and scream and rejoice. To the ones who hope and the ones who hold on.

Never stop dreaming. Never stop hoping and wishing. Never stop creating and never stop loving. Never stop screaming. Never stop feeling. Never stop searching. Never stop looking at the sky and marveling at beauty. Never stop holding on.

For when we do, the world will surely collapse.

-unknown. You're deep.

Countdown 2010

BBQ at Huda's place.

The food was so .. yummehh.

Bab makan, semua yang sedap. Dasar orang gemuk, eheh.

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS.

2010 resolutions

. Always look for the bright side of things
. Say TAK NAK!
. Get organized (specially on financial)
. Have a healthier sleep pattern, healthier life!
. Get better grades
. Get in shape, even with the "injury"
. Attitude adjustment
. Less cursing, more smiling.

Well 2010, you better be fucking AWESOME!